I’m a single mom going through a divorce with three year old triplets and a ten year old. Long story short, it was an abusive situation where I had to leave for the well-being of my children (I’ll write more about that later). I’m not going to lie, some days I find myself hating my life. Questioning over and over, “how did I get here?” There are days where it is a struggle to even wake up and take care of my kids. I didn’t ask for this when I married the man of my dreams! I never imagined myself as a single mom. When I welcomed with joy the news of my pregnancies, I would have never imagined that I would be forced to raise them alone. Well, here I am. A single mom with a restraining order against the father of my children of 12 years. Trying to pick up the pieces of 5 lives shattered by abuse. It sucks. Really, really sucks. In the midst of all this sucknes, my little girl woke up this morning and said ” I love today,” and then the triplet boys said that they “love today too.” This all got my 10 year old thinking, and then he said… “You know, I realized you can make any day a good day if you think positive.” In spite of all we been through, I can see healing take place. Slowly, the pieces that have been broken are being picked up, one by one, and being put back together again. I see joy taking the place of pain. Laughter in the place of fear. Peace in the place of confusion. But then there are days where all I can see is the brokenness, and looking into the future with fear of the unknown, I feel hopeless. Today my children reminded me to not try to understand it all. Take a deep breath, Trust God, and enjoy today. “For tomorrow will worry about itself” As we all sat in the car ready to start our day, with grateful hearts, we said a prayer thanking God for “Today”…And it all started with the sweet little heart of a three year old girl who “loved today.”
I am a single mom of 4 children (three of which are triplets) on a journey to self-sufficiency. I firmly believe in the principle of starting with what you have before God can bless you with more. The parable of the talents illustrates this nicely, “The one to whom five talents have been committed is to render the improvement of five; he who has but one, the improvement of one. God expects returns “according to that a man hath, and not according to that he hath not.” 2 Corinthians 8:12”. This is why I chose to start my journey in an old run-down house in the inner-city. It isn’t much, but I believe through faith and hard work I can create my very own urban homestead. My dream doesn’t stop here, this is just the beginning, the beginning of a journey, a journey of faith.
“Faith is a day-to-day lifestyle and experience of Jesus Christ. That’s what we are experiencing at Shalom, when we plant in faith – even in the dust – and trust in him for the miracles of his love.”
― Angus Buchan, Faith Like Potatoes: The Story of a Farmer Who Risked Everything for God