Little treasures.

I’m a single mom going through a divorce with three year old triplets and a ten year old. Long story short, it was an abusive situation where I had to leave for the well-being of my children (I’ll write more about that later). I’m not going to lie, some days I find myself hating my life. Questioning over and over, “how did I get here?” There are days where it is a struggle to even wake up and take care of my kids. I didn’t ask for this when I married the man of my dreams! I never imagined myself as a single mom. When I welcomed with joy the news of my pregnancies, I would have never imagined that I would be forced to raise them alone. Well, here I am. A single mom with a restraining order against the father of my children of 12 years. Trying to pick up the pieces of 5 lives shattered by abuse. It sucks. Really, really sucks. In the midst of all this sucknes, my little girl woke up this morning and said ” I love today,” and then the triplet boys said that they “love today too.” This all got my 10 year old thinking, and then he said… “You know, I realized you can make any day a good day if you think positive.” In spite of all we been through, I can see healing take place. Slowly, the pieces that have been broken are being picked up, one by one, and being put back together again. I see joy taking the place of pain. Laughter in the place of fear. Peace in the place of confusion. But then there are days where all I can see is the brokenness, and looking into the future with fear of the unknown, I feel hopeless. Today my children reminded me to not try to understand it all. Take a deep breath, Trust God, and enjoy today. “For tomorrow will worry about itself” As we all sat in the car ready to start our day, with grateful hearts, we said a prayer thanking God for “Today”…And it all started with the sweet little heart of a three year old girl who “loved today.”IMG_20150708_185406075

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One thought on “Little treasures.

  1. Dear Friend,

    Thank you for visiting my blog. I left a belated response to the comment you left there.

    I read this post and my heart was broken because of your situation. I prayed for you and for your children today. It is difficult to find words to express my feelings for what you are going through. Although words may not provide the strength that you need to face your new life, and as you said, some times, life sucks, I want you to know that life is precious and now, more than ever before, you children need you to provide some meaning to their own lives. Be strong and enjoy the love of your children.

    Claude Mariottini

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